I cried when I realized I couldn’t eat donuts anymore…
When I say I cried, what I really mean is – I had an all out kicking and screaming, laying on the floor, bottom lip out, temper tantrum. (No, I wasn’t a little kid – I was well into my 30’s.) I followed that heroic scene up with a whole lot of denial, anger, and depression. I ate three extra donuts that week. And Mac and Cheese. And a bagel. And some pizza. I’m sure there was more, but you get the idea.
It’s a little embarrassing to admit the extent of my dismay at being told I had a gluten allergy – but there it is.
I’d been suffering through pain on a daily basis for over two years at that point.
Sensitivity to Light
Dry, Itchy Skin
Gross, Brittle Hair
I felt like a mess, inside and out.
Every time I went to see my primary care physician about these symptoms, he reminded me my thyroid hormone levels were stable, so there was no medical reason for me to feel sick anymore.
He said, and I quote, “Your thyroid levels are fine. I can’t find any other medical reason for what you’re describing. I’ll prescribe you a migraine medication. Take that and good luck to you.” He was a bit put off by my insistence, as if I were a hypochondriac or a cry baby.
I walked out of his office thinking – Good Luck? Seriously? How many years of medical school and your best answer for what’s going on with me is a migraine pill and a Good Luck wish?
Are You Fucking Kidding Me?
To his credit, I’m sure he was just as frustrated as I was. I’d been to his office over and over, complaining of exhaustion, achy-ness, and a general feeling of ‘blah’. He’d run a battery of blood tests that all came out normal according to main stream medicine.
For autoimmune diseases, most doctors have no explanation, they don’t understand the root causes of these illnesses, and therefore, they honestly don’t know how to help their patients. It’s been only recently – as in – this past year – that I’ve noticed doctors in the mainstream start to talk about Epstein Barr Virus, Plant Based Diets, Meditation, Spiritual Practices, and other whole system approaches to healing and health.
In my case, the medical doctor I was working with was old-school, and a gluten allergy probably never once crossed his mind – – let alone the idea of adopting wellness lifestyle practices that include plant based eating, exercise, mindfulness, and spirituality.
The conversation I had that day – moreover – the doctor’s moment of outward irritation at not being able to help me – sparked the beginning of my Spiritual journey into food. I went home and immediately began to research homeopathic doctors in my area.
A few weeks later, with the help of a new, homeopathic doctor, I received the news about my gluten allergy. Once I got over the initial drama of being told I had to change the way I ate, I embarked on over a decade long odyssey into the metaphysics of food that I’m still researching and putting into practice every single day.
First and foremost, I wanted to understand why I was reacting to food so adversely in my body. The simple answer to that is: Most of the food I was eating wasn’t actually food. It was drugs (sugar, ultra processed grains, chemicals, and food dyes) made to look like food.
It became a huge source of empowerment to realize I wasn’t simply allergic to donuts, I was combating drug addiction within my body because of the sugars and ultra-refined carbohydrates I was eating.
They were wreaking havoc on my system, making me feel sick and stealing away my quality of life.
You know the meth and ecstasy drugs that are designed to look like skittles and gummy bears? This is exactly what’s done to food.
Let’s take sugar for example. Studies show that sugar stimulates the same brain centers and produces many of the same chemical reactions in the body as cocaine. If you wouldn’t do a line of coke off your kitchen table, why are you eating sugar?
Let’s think about that. Why do we eat sugar and other processed foods?
First and foremost, we eat them because they are convenient. We also eat them because they are loaded with addictive chemicals and drugs. Sugar is in most processed foods in one form or another. In fact, there are over 40 different words used on food labels for sugar.
As sugar addicts, our brains become hardwired to seek out the very chemical (sugar) that creates the dopamine reaction in our systems that make us feel – at least temporarily – good.
We all know about the sugar high, right? It’s called a high for a reason.
Like any drug – the initial ‘high’ feels good. In our stressed out, over stimulated, pain-induced lives, that ‘feel good high’ is hard to give up.
That’s why changing the way you eat isn’t just about changing the way you eat. It’s about withdrawing from the drug addiction you’ve developed from the food you’re used to eating.
Replace the following words on any food label from:
- ‘sugar’ to ‘drug’
- ‘aspartame’ to ‘drug’
- ‘maltodextrin’ to ‘drug’
- ‘high fructose corn syrup’ to ‘drug’
- ‘red (or yellow, or blue) food dye’ to ‘drug’
- ‘any long word you can’t pronounce and know is not food’ to ‘drug’
Go ahead. Grab a packaged food or two from your kitchen and experiment. How many times do you say the word ‘drug’ when you’re reading off the ingredients on your boxes of cereal and jars of spaghetti sauce?
My guess is, way more than you thought you would.
That’s why it’s so hard to go on a diet and modify the way we eat. We simply have no idea what’s in our food or how it’s affecting us.
Failing a diet or giving in to a craving isn’t just a moment of weakness brought on by your inability to maintain self control. If it were really that simple, the diet industry wouldn’t be a multi-billion dollar a year business.
There is so much more to it than just ‘putting the donut down’ – Especially in the beginning of your food awareness journey.
Not only are you eliminating your traditional comfort foods and desserts, you’re also detoxing from the drugs and chemicals in those foods.
This process takes time, patience, love, compassion, and grace. It really is a “12 step program” that requires a Spiritual relationship with food.
When we talk about the Spiritual Awakening of our time, what we are referring to is being aware of the connections between who we are and what we do. We are connected Spiritually to every act we commit whether we are conscious of it or not.
Eating, something we do multiple times a day, is the ultimate example of that. We are Spiritually connected to the food we eat. Everything we consume as humans for the benefit or detriment of our health has a Spirit- or energy. Drugs, be they synthetic or plant based, also have an energetic force – or – Spirit. From a quantum perspective, the Spirit, or energy of the food or drug we take into our bodies, creates a resonating pattern of energy in every bone, muscle, joint, tendon, and cell. In fact, it reduces down energetically to affect even the amino acids in our DNA.
We do, literally, become what we eat – physically, mentally, and Spiritually. Our brains help us out. They create dopamine receptors that consciously seek out the foods we have become accustomed to consuming.
It’s as if we grow energetic antennae that tune in to the things we’re putting into our bodies. If we hardwired our systems to seek out sugar, that’s what our bodies will crave. If we’re hardwired to seek out lettuce – salad will make our mouths water.
It is that simple and that complicated.
The only way to make lasting, long term changes to your diet is to bring Spiritual Awareness (or mindfulness, if you prefer that term) to your food choices.
One of the easiest ways to do that is to ask yourself the following question every time you choose to eat something:
“This is the healthiest choice I can make right now for my body.”
Then, trust yourself.
Your Soul (Spirit, Higher Self, Connection to the Universe) will automatically become aware of what you’re doing. On day one, a donut may feel like the best choice you are capable of making. But it won’t always be like that.
Down the road, your choices will become better for you. The more you practice this exercise, the more your body begins to pay attention to and resonate with your desire to be healthy. Your body and brain withdraw from food chemicals, dyes, and additives. You develop new ‘energetic antennae’ that are more attuned to the life force of healthier foods. Your body begins to repair and rebuild itself. Life gets better and healthier, one bite at a time.
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